Full Circle

Welp, considering that has been over a year since I have written in here, I'm thinking that this post may be just for me. That's fine because truth be told, I have a lot on my mind. I just planned my going away party details on Facebook, and considering it is in 4 days, I had to laugh. I think that is just about the same amount of notice that I gave my NJ friends when I was leaving for Hawaii. It made me smile, I guess that even though my life feels like a complete and under mess right now... some things are still the same. It's hard not to judge myself just based on my current situation, so knowing that this is how I was two years ago both depresses me and makes me feel like I am just being me, and unfortunately sometimes that is just a mess. As low as I can feel, I can't fall completely, because after all the loss and troubles that have come into my life, I have had a really good time of it! Hawaii will always be the best decision that I ever made. Even if I never succeed, I will never regret coming here. That means a lot to me because I have a lot of regrets. There have been a lot of really good times here. I have made friends that will be in my life forever (whether they want it or not- ha!), and I am proud of my accomplishments! While my life is a stress ball right now, and it doesn't seem to let be letting up at all... Hawaii was still a great experience. And the warmth of those wonderful memories will keep me warm until things work out! At least I hope it will. Fingers crossed!